Ever since I returned from all my traveling (conference, vacation, retreat), I’ve been struggling to get back in the saddle with my work and with the things I need to do around the house. This week is understandable because of the heat index, but we were having beautiful, comfortable weather up until the last couple of days. And I was spending entirely too much time laying around, sleeping, etc.
Perhaps now that I’ve finished the antibiotics for a minor infection that showed up in lab tests during my annual physical, my body will decide to stop fighting me, and I’ll be more energized to do what I need to do. The good news is that because I’ve been through occasional episodes of depression, I know to seek professional help if that becomes necessary. For now, I think I’ll just put myself on a more regular schedule and resist going back to sleep after the alarm goes off. Once I get myself here to the office, I actually get a break from the heat (air conditioning). And if I get on the bike to come here earlier (as opposed to my 10:00 start today), I’ll miss the worst of the heat.
And maybe I just need to pinch myself to remind me of the graces of my directed retreat. I came off that retreat with a deep down sense of being comfortable in my own skin, of knowing that it’s OK to bring ALL of who I am to any situation as long as I respect others’ boundaries. Like I said in en earlier post, God gets the credit for making me into the woman I’ve become. So the invitation is to live in a stance of gratitude and generosity, trusting that the grace to do so is abundant and available.
Please pray that I will experience some release from this lethargy and apathy. And thanks for hanging in there with me.