Here are some words from the Maxims of Perfection by Fr. Jean-Pierre Médaille that I really need to hear for myself:
Whoever lets God act in him/her, without too much interference from self, will accomplish a great many things in a short time and never lose peace of heart” (M.P. 7:5).
As you can tell by my “Twitter” sidebar, I’ve been up to my eyeballs trying to make a dent in the piles of grading and course prep I have, or at least trying not to fall further behind. A brutal travel schedule, combined with a faculty hiring process, applying for promotion, and a number of medical check-ups and tests make for a dizzying pace these days.
So how am I doing? Well, amazingly, I don’t feel as though I’ve lost my inner peace, at least at the deepest level. I am a bit scatterbrained on the surface level, but so grateful that I am not falling into the downward spiral of anxiety and depression that gripped me at this time last year. It is true that I am snowed under with work, and there are days when there’s no chance to chip away at the backlog. But, all things considered, I am in reasonably good spirits, and not too cranky with my students.
As for accomplishing a great many things in a short time, well, that’s another story. I suspect if I make a strong commitment to getting enough sleep on a consistent basis, that piece might just fall into place. The secret is trusting that if I attend to this important balance in my life, God will do in me what is needed to be more productive.
It’s all about balance, no? God, help me to get out of the way and let you work!